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The evening came accompanied by a brash display
of color in the western sky. Rising slowly,
provocatively, hoisting itself above the
world, the full moon looked down to see what
madness humanity would undertake. But tonight,
I hoped we would deny the moon a show. Tonight
we would be praying under its light.
I got in my car and headed to our state capitol
building where a vigil for peace was being
held. I parked and left my car, walking slowly,
then quickly, then slowly again, excited
to get there, but wanting to immerse myself
in this experience, to fix this night in
my memory. I felt like something special
was happening. As I neared the rear entrance,
I produced a small red candle seated snuggly
in a ceramic container -- cinnamon scent,
leftover from Christmas. I smiled at the
appropriateness…yes, peace on earth, good will to men.
I stepped onto the already crowded
extra-wide
marble steps and lit it. I looked around
me at the sea of humanity and was taken
by
surprise by my emotions. Overwhelmed,
I pulled
in my breath, my eyes welling up. I
really
just wanted to burst out in tears of
joy,
but I held back. I kept my feelings
to myself,
but I didn't feel alone. On the contrary,
I never felt so connected.
We were here burning our little candles,
hoping and praying. It was a silent
vigil
- that is, no loudspeakers blaring,
and no,
"What do we want….When do we want
it."
Just people together standing, overlooking
a city, which could be any city in
America
right now.
Faintly, sweetly, angelic sopranos
in unison
slowly entreated over and over, "All
we are saying is give peace a chance."
I knew John Lennon was with us. The
man who
so vocally promoted peace, who was
silenced
by the violence he protested against.
The
plaintive tune rose and fell and there
was
murmuring and silence and prayer again.
My little red candle was drowning in wax.
I carefully tipped it. The crimson liquid
splattered on the steps like a trickle of
blood. Please God, let there be no war, no blood
spilled in the name of peace on earth.
The moon was high in the sky now, as
strong
as the sun was today. The candles are
burning
and it seems that everything is in
full force,
in unison, moving as one soul, one
entity.
Then abruptly, I hear what could, in
another
country, be air raid sirens blaring
out.
It is the city's fire engines racing
to an
emergency, foreshadowing the urgency
of our
situation, reminding us that we live
in an
unsteady world.
A small sign with a photo of a headshot
of
George Bush Jr. sways to and fro in
front
of me, strips of silver duct tape covering
his mouth. I'm not here for the politics.
I don't really care who wants war or
why,
I am against the whole idea. I think
the
world has seen enough of it. I hope
they
have.
But it is hard to separate the drive to war
from the driver. It is a sad day when our
leaders seem to resist what we instinctively
know is truth and become deaf and dumb to
the energy of the people -- to all the living
things of the world, to life itself. When
these men forget their sacred stewardship
of the earth and for each other, then they
have lost their way and they can not help
us.
I believe in the sacredness of life.
For
one soul to perish unnecessarily is
one too
many. War is never an acceptable answer.
War is an outmoded vehicle spewing
toxicity
into the air, a danger to everyone.
Evil
will devour itself and disappear into
the
dust. Peace will always promote more
peace.
If we focus on peace it will return
to us.
Like a lover, there is a bond, an unspoken
energy that draws it to us when we
desire
it so much.
I got back to my car and drove around to
peruse the view from afar. There they all
were, at least 1000 strong -- all the flickering
fireflies on the tiered steps of our state's
capitol. I slowed to catch a better look
at these fireflies, each with their own inner
light, showing that they believe there is
a chance.
Will a thousand candles make a difference?
In our hearts we must believe. In our
hearts
we have faith. In each heart there
is the
flame of a thousand candles, calling
out
as one voice, a peaceful choir standing,
waiting, listening for an answer from
the
darkness beyond the light.
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